I saw you today. Had breakfast together.
Was happy, but i acted it all out so perfectly .
I was sick, had gastric .
I really don't feel like eating.
Sometimes I don't understand why you could still put aside all your worries and carry on.
I can't you know, but I'm trying.
After school, took a bus back home.
If you were here you would take good care of me .
I kept telling myself that I've to stay strong.

Dearest ! I will not stop loving you. This love is not going to fade.
Had a fun time being scared by you. Dearest !
Had a fun time controlling you too (:
You just simply brought joy to my world.
At night how I wish you were here with me.
I really hope you would come back to my side.

Meet up with you at my house there, then went over to MCYS with kevin and Cindy.
At MCYS you deleted your contact, couldn't control my emotions. ):
I really don't wish to let you see that I cried.
Then I went home to change, then faster run to kevin house to see you (:
Put make-up, then we head down to Chinatown.
kevin wants to have his tatoos done there, Cindy and Priscilla wanted too .
Slack for about two hours, then down to Grandlink, Zhiwei called and I purposely talk loud and happily with him.
Just to let you sot !
I want you to believe me, i can't imagine that I had not change just because of the night life post.

I want to act happy so you think that I had move on.
But now I couldn't cause I know you still love me.
When I overheard what you and Priscilla was talking about I also very sot !
We both still love each other deeply but you just want to avoid cause you're sick and tired.
Maybe we are still young, if we are much more older we can really last .
Cause young people are implusive. They didn't think before they do .
Reach home at about 9, wanted to go your house. but you don't want.
Maybe after discharge I will go.
Thou now I 'm waiting for your return , it's abit tough but I still feel abit of blissful.
Thou I can't comfirm that you will come back, but at least I know I had tried my best.
I don't want one day I will live this life full of regrets.
At night I couldn't take it any longer, I went to meet kevin and Zhiqian to drink.
I tried to drink as much as possible. then vomited wish you were here.
& i also saw Jimmy, he was with the same group.
jimmy also ask me to go his house, he said he would come and fetch me .
but i don't want (:
Walk back home think of you, then bath then sleep.

Woke up at 9 today, only slept for like 4 to 5 hour.
Couldn't stop myself from pestering you. I really very stress nobody that I could trust more then you to relate to .
Nobody to make me laugh, smile.
I miss you.
Just now ahvion gave me support to continue on this relationship.
I will never give up de, neither do I will hate you.
I will still be Mrs Yap de, waiting for you to dote on me again.
Waiting for you to tickle me 50 sec.
Just waiting for you hug me so tight and never let me go .
I love you, GYWZ.
My prince.

01.02am
You just sleep ! I'm glad you still cared.
I'm glad we could still be friends. I wants to brighten up your life as a friend for this moment .
I just feel so guilty to got you to be in this state.
At least now i could still try to make you smile.
Looking forward to see you tomorrow (:
I'm always be dearest !

I dreamt of you, my dearest.
Just right beside me, hand on my head & the other on my hand.
Smiling at me telling me everythings gonna be alrights.
Woke up by my mum, and realise it was all a dream .
I manage to learn some of the Dota-s already .
I used to hate it so badly but now I can learn it with so much Joy.
Could you listen to my sorrow, could you come back to my side?
Could you webcam with me again ?
Could you sent me back home?
Could you tickle me ?
When are you gonna wipe off my tears ?
When are you gonna confort me ? I miss you .
I need you !
I always said my life would be incomplete without you !
So glad you had replied my message.
Answer my call, but with some stupid attitude.
Then you still talk to me in msn ! (:,
Sometimes when I see Sherrlyn with Kevin, I envy them.
You both are brothers but kevin will care in a different way.
but you care but don't show it out .
I know you still love me, just don't wish to continue of this relationship.
Just sick and tired, kept putting hope in me that i will change but i didn't .
I want to clarify that night i really had no intension of breaking.
I know I shouldn't sent the message, so you won't think of break .
Don't stop believing cause I had never stop believing it will fail
it take two hand to clap.
as long as we work hard this would be a dream come true.
to announce me as Mre Yap .
to have our Jinglebell, Marabell, annabell .

I can do it without you but my love won't fade even you weren't here.
People may say that I had change but it's not true you should know that I still love you and it's impossible for me to not love you.
Only you know! If you don't even know all this while in Facebook I'm just acting strong to not let you avoid me. I will think you don't know me well.
You're the one who would know me best.
If other's believe I won't mind but if you too also believe that I had move on. I can only be disappointed in you.
Just hope you will get over all these grudges soon.
& befriend with me again.
Just know that my heart will always be your's. & no one will ever replace it.
Only you, i could entrust all my troubles to. Cause you are a good friend and a good boyf.
Is me who doesn't know how to treasure it.
& took everything for granted .

2.59 am
I still couldn't sleep, I don't know why .
Dearest, where are you ?
Could you comfort me to sleep ?
Could you come back to me ?
I really need you badly, I can't take it any longer.
Faking all these smile .
I will never stop believing that your love will fade for me.
I will always believe that one day we will be back together.
And get married, and have our own children.
I will wait, cause i will never stop believing (:

Your's faithfully;
VivianChanXinNing